Monday 18 May 2009

13. To Whom It May Concern

16/5/09

Last night a 'friend' of mine tried to strangle me. My throat still hurts. After having been away for three days I came back and that evening (no real suprise) there was a party at what I used to call my home.

At about six in the morning I was playing some loud music. Six in the morning is not an unusual time to hear music in my former home. He came in and told me "I wasn't allowed" to play music at this time. His urge to control can be really terrifying. I said that I paid as much rent as anyone and he just kept repeating that I "wasn't allowed".

He then grabbed me around the shoulder and around the neck. I didn't fight back. It's not my way. He said to me, whilst attempting to push my windpipe in, that I was a cunt. He kept repeating that I didn't have any friends and that no-one would believe me if I told them about this. He was squeezing my throat harder and harder as if I was play-dough that wouldn't fit into his mould. I sat down (he still grabbing my throat) in front of the door on the inside of my then-bedroom saying, "Is this what you want to do to a friend?" He just squeezed harder saying no-one would believe me. I am genuinely scared about the brainwashed state of his group of friends.

Shortly after sitting in front of the door someone who had heard the noise came to the outside of it. Immediately and whilst still holding my throat tightly, he said "[j0hv] won't let me out." I am truly worried about the state of mind that could allow someone to do that. I could hardly breathe at this point.

He just repeated that no-one would belive me. Do you?

I bought a bolt and a padlock, fitted them to my door, put all my things inside, locked it and left.

1 comment:

use said...

Hi J0vh. I heard about this, it makes me sick to my stomach because i have heard the lies he told from the people you'd expect to hear them from. I guess his mask has now well and truly slipped. Sad times. I hope you find some peace of mind away from the psychosis, and rest assured there are many people in this world who hold you you in very high regard. Isn't such a strange feeling that someone we used to call friend has fallen so far, it's literally incredible. It must be pretty hard for you to take on board so i wish you all the strength you need for that.

Peace and Love my brother. Peace and Love.